I have not been fading; can only dream of doing so some day as my family and close friends are heavily in the JW world and I just cannot afford emotionally to part ways with them.
My only consolation is that knowing TTATT has helped me in lowering service hrs/quality, meeting attendance and other JW stuff without the guilt usually associated with it. Also, I've recently formed a network inside of kindred trapped spirits and it's easing the JW burden.
Indoctrination runs deep when JWs that brought me up are so entangled with the WTBTS. The state of mind of waiting for the other shoe to drop is unbearable at times.
DY